tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2084714610149216634.post2628601856557220113..comments2016-12-24T11:15:13.999-07:00Comments on Thoughts From a Trash Can: Admission is the Hardest StepMaharry Ballshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04079462685001544519noreply@blogger.comBlogger3125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2084714610149216634.post-41387882805921721242011-09-01T16:00:40.654-07:002011-09-01T16:00:40.654-07:00kudos for having (maharry) balls, maybe not litera...kudos for having (maharry) balls, maybe not literally, to share something like this.Anonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/14042186785156131576noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2084714610149216634.post-62956888836435369532011-08-26T17:49:18.933-07:002011-08-26T17:49:18.933-07:00I would never try to diminish or downplay the feel...I would never try to diminish or downplay the feelings of others and I know myself that depression is very real. Kudos for knowing what helps and doesn't and for being honest all the way around. (((hugs)))jgirlhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07707613297668366407noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2084714610149216634.post-17261850644450999642011-08-26T13:48:22.386-07:002011-08-26T13:48:22.386-07:00I am having a hard time thinking of something funn...I am having a hard time thinking of something funny or witty to say...<br /><br />I never understood what it must be like living with chronic depression. I always thought it was bullshit that people made up to try and gain attention. I thought that there is no reason that anyone shouldn't be as awesome as me and handle their depression like a boss (when I would feel down, I would just stop, then I wouldn't feel down anymore). I thought it was stupid and silly for people to jam synthesized chemicals into their system just to try and bring a smile to their face. I was naive. In January, my Grandfather died. He was the closest person I have ever had in my life, someone I always looked to for guidance and a person that I thought would prove to be immortal. When he died, everything changed for me. For a solid 2 weeks, I couldn't be around anyone. I would instantly break down into tears for no reason whatsoever. I could not control my emotions, and my wife (who is pretty horrible with emotional shit) just left me alone. I was a wreck, and for the first time in my life, I understood what it must be like for someone to experience this on a life long scale. Fortunately, my issue was temporary. I still break down once in a while, but I am not totally bathed in grief like I was. I am fortunate to have people around me who bring happiness to my life. Most of the time now, when I feel like shit, I put my arms around my little ones, and the pain of the world is instantly (although temporarily) cured.<br /><br />So, what was it for you? Did you have an event that started you down the emotional spiral, or is this just something that has always been around? Also, do you have a "thing" that brings you absolute joy? <br /><br />Finally, I sometimes have a knack for making people happy. If you ever feel like you need a smile, let me know and I will gladly punch myself in the nuts, or something.Bartnoreply@blogger.com